Assumptions!! Challenge them before it's too late! I missed 2 meetings today. 1) Bus delay 2) Wrong building!!!

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself

So I was going to buy a printer today. It was in stock. Now, it's out of stock. What to do.

Well, when it was in stock, I hesitated to get it because I wasn't sure whether it was worthwhile. Do I have the kind of money to spend on that printer? It was only 50 bucks, but I already had 2 inkjet printers that just were either crappy or were out of ink. We have a total of 6 or 7 inkjets but I wanted a laser because they output more professional-looking prints faster and more efficiently. Plus, you can hold them to your body for warmth.

The problem with inkjets is that they run out of ink whether you use them or not. They dry out. They cost so much per page, who cares if they're color. Plus, you just know you're getting screwed with everyone making cartidges smaller and smaller. And the frustrations!!! See previous post.

Anyhow, I delayed because I was afraid my roommate would use it quite liberally because he prints stuff all the time on his printer and I know he has quite a casual attitude towards conservation. In general, this can be related to my fear of "using" people. I don't like oweing people money. I don't like asking people for favors. I don't mind helping other people, but I'm painfully aware that if you like helping people out but don't like asking for favors, then you're going to end up with a disequilibrium. Ideally, in a trusting long-term relationship, you can give and take. But I guess since learning that people don't always anticipate what you need but are likely to help you, you have to ask. In the case of my roommate, I hesitate to say, eat his pop-tarts or cold cuts, because I don't want to owe him anything as my sense of obligation would cause me to overcompensate. I wouldn't be in an absolute state of oweing him nothing. So, consequently, knowing that I owed him nothing and that if anything, he owed all of us (as chores go), I didn't want him to exercise his liberal usage of resources on my printer.

See, the problem stems from me not exercising the reciprocity to return the equilibrium to a level I could more tolerate. And, the isn't going to be a noticeable point. Just a back and forth where overall, there is a balance. Eh.. Maybe this will help me make decisions in the future. Being taken advantage and taking advantage of people (with none of it's connotations). Quid pro quo... I guess we join society for a reason.

Death by suffocation

Do not let the Epson printer head get exposed to air. If a cartridge is empty, there is a well of ink left in the print head to keep it moist and UNCLOGGED. If you remove the empty cartridge without replacing it with a new one, that well of ink will dry and clog the head. That's why Epson printers keep track of how much your print--so they can stop you before you let it dry out.

Worst week of my life

Is it really? I doubt it. Is it probably? I can't think of a worse one. The bright side (the scary side) is that I don't really care. I'm almost looking forward to the relatively positive light it will cast everything in and it's not like there was nothing redeeming about the week. Next week? It'll probably similar to this week. What happened here? (You can tell that it's going to be a good post, right?)

I have a paper and three exams monday and tuesday. Sunday I kinda have to not be around all day and then I have to come back to work a shift I can't work properly without my password generator. This is a terrible rant.

Well, another bright spot is that everything will look good in comparison to this week. When everything goes well, everything looks bad, right? On to the enumeration. First, I fail to do not one but two programming assignments. Then, I don't fall asleep in class for a day! What a suprise. Then, I have a decent officers meeting. Apple goes up 10 dollars since my sale (yay! [note sarcasm]). I have a decent exam experience. I lose my keys, usb memory key, and password generator for work. I have a nice walk around suburban New Brunswick looking for it and talk to my mom. I find out that I have a $1000 extra dollars to spend dropping my meal plan next semester (good for when I get fired or resign from my job). Oh, I also took the taxi within a 1 mile radius of Rutgers 4 times!!

updated 12:42 same day

Be deliberate

Throughout my life, I've had an aversion to deliberate action and planning. Studying should not be undertaken, because it was too deliberate. Learning should be coincedental and studying should be unnecessary. Humility and courtesy should be thoughtless. Generous and kind deeds were not done without fear of appearing to expect approval or reciprocation. Friendships (if any) were underappreciated and not deliberately made (that started to change after governor's school, but it was kinda late). Wow, what a bad philosophy. I'm currently taking a blogging break, because it's taking me an absurd amount of time to complete an assignment for my African politics class.

What's the result of this, you shouldn't have to try philosophy? Absent-mindedness, indecisiveness, under-socialization, no systematic reasoning, no critical thinking, and no study habits and pathological procrastination results. If it's not as bad as I make it sound, it wasn't to my credit. Thanks to everyone's who's saved my butt, everyone who's reached out to me, people who bear with my strangeness. Several keywords I hope to keep in mind are to be SYSTEM, ENGAGEMENT, REASON, PLANNING, CONCENTRATION.

Utter ignorance

I accidentally bought back my apple shares after selling them because I placed a limit order to buy at particular price. Well, a limit is a limit. It's a boundary. It means that if the market price matches is better than the limit you set, it'll execute. What I wanted to do, was to wait til the market value reached a certain level before buying back. I should've placed a stop limit/market order.

It's an utterly embarrassing way to lose 3 x 11.99 dollars.

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