Be deliberate

Throughout my life, I've had an aversion to deliberate action and planning. Studying should not be undertaken, because it was too deliberate. Learning should be coincedental and studying should be unnecessary. Humility and courtesy should be thoughtless. Generous and kind deeds were not done without fear of appearing to expect approval or reciprocation. Friendships (if any) were underappreciated and not deliberately made (that started to change after governor's school, but it was kinda late). Wow, what a bad philosophy. I'm currently taking a blogging break, because it's taking me an absurd amount of time to complete an assignment for my African politics class.

What's the result of this, you shouldn't have to try philosophy? Absent-mindedness, indecisiveness, under-socialization, no systematic reasoning, no critical thinking, and no study habits and pathological procrastination results. If it's not as bad as I make it sound, it wasn't to my credit. Thanks to everyone's who's saved my butt, everyone who's reached out to me, people who bear with my strangeness. Several keywords I hope to keep in mind are to be SYSTEM, ENGAGEMENT, REASON, PLANNING, CONCENTRATION.

Utter ignorance

I accidentally bought back my apple shares after selling them because I placed a limit order to buy at particular price. Well, a limit is a limit. It's a boundary. It means that if the market price matches is better than the limit you set, it'll execute. What I wanted to do, was to wait til the market value reached a certain level before buying back. I should've placed a stop limit/market order.

It's an utterly embarrassing way to lose 3 x 11.99 dollars.